Monday, October 20, 2008
sometimes im really disappointed with my friends
my heart hurts
depressed, is what i always say.
seriously, who cares about me?
who?
my didi perhaps, but i think he cant really know what im going through
not my mama, my parents, my so-called best friends/friends
all they do to me is to make fun of me ..
and say all those things like, "i really dont understand you"
well? since when did u spend time to understand me ?
you said that im ur best friend. then why didnt you show ur concern when im having a hard time with my relationship ..
what are you doing then?
have they ever thought of my feelings before?
nobody seems to hear what im saying
am i invisble or whaT?
am i so NOT important that they couldnt hear me ..
i said it right into their face. and they just ignored me ..
have they ever realised that im there?
didnt they know that they have neglected me ?
leaving me to one side or .. let me walk on my own and they were happily talking ,walking infront
if one can be alone, if one could be happy just by oneself, i would very glad to be that one
if i wouldnt have to depend on others
if only i wouldnt have to rely on people..
if only i could stand on my own
i wouldnt have feel so much pain now ,already..
who understands?
i always think thrice or more when i said something or so .
am i being too cautious ?
why should i be so cowardy..
why cant i just say my feelings out?
to my friends~ tell them that i HATE THEM BEING BIASED
I DONT WANT THEM TO NEGLECT ME
I WANT THEIR RESPECT AND CONCERNS
but at the same time,
do they have the responsiblity to treat me nice and care for me .?
thats the question.
yammil posted 8:46 AM
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Tuesday, October 14, 2008
why are u acting so differently?i guess is because you no longer have love for me ..is that even love?i really start to wonder. how can u put down a 5yrs+ relationship down so easilywhy or how can u just treat me as transparent..once again , you didnt talk to me online. neither did u sms me ,nor you take the first move to msn me .what exactly are you thinking?you said i was your babe last night, but your actions that u have for the next day is so NOT you-are-my-babe FEEL ... =( why am i caring so much /you know how hard is it for me to step out of ur shadow?i have been trying so hard. so hard to keep you out of my mind.seriously, i hate you so much so much so much for breaking my heart, so much for always, neglecting my feelingi finally understand whats "liang ge ren de ji mo"understand whats the greatest distance .. understand"im right infront of you, yet you dont know how much i love you" or rather "im right in front of you, yet i cant feel your heart or see you at all".i am so lonelyi always have this lonesome feeling . why dont my friends care?why are they so busy ?i dont want ,to be alone. i hate being alone=( im sad depressedwho understands? or who bothers to care?
im always there for you ..
its just that you dont think the same way anymore..
you have loved somebody else
you need more friends, than a lover ,i guess
why am i always looking out for you ?
can you simply stop it !
i dont look forward to weekends ,yet =(
yammil posted 7:56 AM
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