Sunday, November 16, 2008
its been. 2 months or so ?
we haben been calling each other "names"
well something like baby and such ..
no more..
no more night calls
not even good night message..
or even a simple sms or msn ...
we didnt talk for so long
i guess this is the so called cold war
i guess she has really forgotten about me ,when she has that bunch of netballers and ite friends to be with.
she dont even bother to sms or call me when shes free
she would rather spend her time on anime and such
attend friend's birthday celebration..
or even go out with someone else? who knoes
she looks so happy with them, or rather her?
someone whom resembles her best friend.
why dont she smile like that when shes with me
=(
i feel like crying
why am i always the first to approach her already?
i dont want to .
cos i want to know if she still cares or thinks about me.
so what now?
she dont call anymore..meaning she dont care or think about me at all!
let alone love
=(
sad
sad
sad
i need love
i need someone to HUG ME
just some one who can give me a sense of an quan gan
hais
just like what my dp says.
"tears are words from the heart that cant be spoken"
how true is that man
i only feel like tearing now
boohoo
sad
she totally ignores me already.
who am i to her?
not even a friend, i guess..
who can i talk about this to?
who
no one i guess ..
those who know about us, think that we have broken up..
but in fact, i have no idea if we are still considered as couple ..
whether im .. single, or taken
who cares anyway ?
no other pple loves me, other than my family ..
right ..?
yammil posted 3:16 AM
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Thursday, November 13, 2008
im not very happy
why am i affected by her ?
like suddenly .. why am i emoing, just because she didnt call/sms me today?
shit you man ..
why must i be sad over her
kns isshe worthy?
see, time really proves everything, or at least something
dont u think shes kinda overboard.
she said she was busy with her stuffs, thus she dont have time for me
so, what now? ur final year presentation is finally over.
and what? nothing changes. not as if, u will HAVE THE TIME TO CALL me or so
crap
why am i believing u
why am i looking at our old photos
looking out for u at msnstill
shit man
i hate it
why must i be so , desperate for u ?
shit u shit u shit u
pui
u shittty barbie
hmph
yammil posted 8:19 AM
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Monday, November 10, 2008
hello im back again
aye
im feeling v puzzled now
mm really know whati really want
i should have done more, be more passionate to her if i really love her
but atthe same time, i hold myself back
i told myself not to miss her, not to show that i miss her alot.
what am i exactly doing?
doing things half heartedly again!
i really hate myself for that
been hooked on emo songs these days
aye ..
am i healing my wounded heart, or am i digging a even deeper grave for myself?
yammil posted 8:19 AM
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